This has been one of those weeks. You know the ones where you are just in a funk and you can’t get out. There have been the days where I feel like I failure as a mom and a wife. I can’t keep this damn house clean. I try and try and then I just don’t even want to get up from bed. I force myself to get up for Sky, I tell myself you have to write a list of things to do today and then you will do them. Well guess what, the only thing I end up doing is writing the list. I do get up and cook everyday but that is something that I love to do. Like tonight I made lasagna soup from Skinnytaste.com. It took my mind off of the rest of the house to just be cooking dinner while my husband watched Sky, but then comes the kitchen clean up. Between my back and just my general lack of wanting to do anything it just gets worse and worse. Don’t get me wrong, our house is livable, it’s just not the cleanest it has ever been. I get questions like how are you going to do this if you have another baby, well here’s the thing, it’s not that I don’t have time, I do, it’s that I just can’t get up and do it sometimes. When I am having good weeks with my depression then the house looks amazing, well at least to my standards, but when I am feeling off it shows in my house. Like this Saturday I am having some people over so I know I need to clean but I just can’t. I feel like I’m drowning in my own mind, do you know what I mean? Does anyone else ever feel this way? I hope I am not the only one.