Babies and Chaos

Funkarama

This has been one of those weeks. You know the ones where you are just in a funk and you can’t get out. There have been the days where I feel like I failure as a mom and a wife. I can’t keep this damn house clean. I try and try and then I just don’t even want to get up from bed. I force myself to get up for Sky, I tell myself you have to write a list of things to do today and then you will do them. Well guess what, the only thing I end up doing is writing the list. I do get up and cook everyday but that is something that I love to do. Like tonight I made lasagna soup from Skinnytaste.com. It took my mind off of the rest of the house to just be cooking dinner while my husband watched Sky, but then┬ácomes the kitchen clean up. Between my back and just my general lack of wanting to do anything it just gets worse and worse. Don’t get me wrong, our house is livable, it’s just not the cleanest it has ever been. I get questions like how are you going to do this if you have another baby, well here’s the thing, it’s not that I don’t have time, I do, it’s that I just can’t get up and do it sometimes. When I am having good weeks with my depression then the house looks amazing, well at least to my standards, but when I am feeling off it shows in my house. Like this Saturday I am having some people over so I know I need to clean but I just can’t. I feel like I’m drowning in my own mind, do you know what I mean? Does anyone else ever feel this way? I hope I am not the only one.

2 thoughts on “Funkarama

  1. You are definitely not alone! I go through those weeks of the house being a disaster and I don’t have the energy or will to clean it. But on the “good” weeks (sometimes only days) I can keep everything spotless and think to myself “Why cant I do this all the time?”. I have felt like a horrible wife lately because I never make dinner anymore. Its been weeks. I will make stuff for my daughter when we get home from work/daycare, but I havent made a meal in a long time. My husband doesnt get home from work until almost 8 so Im not going to make 2 meals. Usually hes on his own and I feel like a horrible wife never making him anything.

    1. My husband use to work until 8 as well so I definitely get not wanting to make two meals. It is so hard when you are in a funk to do anything at all. Most of my meals during the day are sandwiches, leftovers, or just random things thrown together to hit most of the food groups. Some days I don’t even have the energy to make myself anything to eat. Maybe on your good days you could prep a few freezer meals that you can just heat up when you need to? That way you just have to nuke something instead of cooking. I also have a great microwave lasagna recipe that you can have if you would like. The only cooking needed is to brown the hamburger. You are not a horrible wife, horrible wives don’t care and this shows you care.

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